Living Well

So, at noon, thursday, I go for my stomach scope. I’m a little nervous I have to say, but I’m eager to figure out what it wrong with me. Your thoughts and prayers would be much appreciated as I continue this journey to my wellness.
970401_541051092597370_498141191_nThough it has been a tough six months, and some days I’m confined to bed, but I have to say that one thing it has taught me is to Live Well. It’s strange not knowing what life is going to carry the next day. For me, I’m used to working like crazy, getting things done, and celebrating our people ( It’s true – blessed to say in the last year alone we’ve seen Emmy nominations, Leo award wins, Miss World Canada, Miss Universe Canada, and Mr World Canada crownings, music award wins and more nominations ). Not that those things define us, but it really is great to celebrate the dreams of our friends and clients. I’ve loved that. But, in the last few weeks, I’ve literally just had to take one day at a time. Its weird. Actually it’s kind of liberating. It makes me take each moment and be grateful for it. It’s made me really understand what’s important. I’ve been present with my family and my friends, and I’ve taken my time understanding what I love. Although I couldn’t do as much “work” as I’d like, I’ve seen God provide for our family, and I’ve loved seeing my family shine, even when I felt I couldn’t. They light up on set filming, on the baseball fields, on the beach, when we are with friends. I am one proud wife and mother.

1010293_10151559103751284_790473411_nI also feel like I got my voice back. One of my friends who is a very successful musician and writer once said to me that he “lost his words” for a period of time where he was going through struggle in his life. I didn’t understand what he meant fully, until this season of my sickness. I realized that for the last few years, I think I had “lost my voice”. Not in the sense that I didn’t have one, but that I had just lost what I once had. So much happened in my music career, and amongst the success was a lot of brokenness and hurt. I stayed positive in the midst of it, and I learned to help others find their voices, and champion their dreams, which I also love. But in this season I’m in now, I’ve found my own voice again, and I’m more excited than ever to share it.

998714_10151559103366284_349729947_nMy joy has been performing again. I’ve had the privilege of sitting at a grand piano and I get to show the world some of my story. It’s been strength for me these past few months, and I look forward to it more. I’m learning to be the leading lady in my own show again.

That’s it I guess for now. I have a show on Oxford hill in Whiterock on August 17th. It’s outdoor, and free, and it’s going to be awesome if you’d like to join me! I’d love to see you there 🙂

 

 

MARIKA

 

(photo credit Ruby Huang at Vancity Dream 2013)

All in a day….

Fam2012Got kids to school, then to yet another doctor appointment. Found out I have to visit the surgeon. LAME. But I’m not scared. There is NO FEAR IN LOVE. On to Costco grocery shop with my hubby, followed by somewhat intense conversation with a concerned mother. It was all good. Felt confident in WHOSE I AM, what I do, and I am so thankful that I have learned to be damn good at valuing myself and valuing people, because “What you don’t VALUE you VIOLATE”. Thanks for that quote Rex Crain. Got home. Discovered my son’s second commercial aired. Couldn’t stop watching him on screen. He’s amazing. Went back and watched his first commercial that aired a few days earlier.
Made some phone calls, because I LOVE talking to people in real life 🙂 Kids came home. Played with them. Loved every moment. Got a call that we booked a TV job as a family. Had to be honest and integral about an issue that may have lost us the job. Felt sick for about 20 minutes. Thanked God that honesty and integrity is better than not saying anything at all even it meant we lost the job. Felt sick about it for another 5 minutes. Got another call to confirm that we for sure booked. Celebrated with the family with high fives and a happy dance. Got a call from an old industry friend and had such a great catch up and dreamed a bit of the future. ( I TREASURE the great relationships that I get the privilege of being a part of ). Had supper, dropped kids off with friends, headed to be industry guests with Stacy at a really great Vancity showcase. Got to be with one of the best sound guys in the city and an old friend, as well as the interns I teach who are all amazing people. Now I’m home, and I’m going to sleep. Wow. All in a day. This doesn’t happen every day. But it was so epic I need to write it down. Gonna cuddle my kids and kiss them all now. Then to bed 🙂