Living Well

So, at noon, thursday, I go for my stomach scope. I’m a little nervous I have to say, but I’m eager to figure out what it wrong with me. Your thoughts and prayers would be much appreciated as I continue this journey to my wellness.
970401_541051092597370_498141191_nThough it has been a tough six months, and some days I’m confined to bed, but I have to say that one thing it has taught me is to Live Well. It’s strange not knowing what life is going to carry the next day. For me, I’m used to working like crazy, getting things done, and celebrating our people ( It’s true – blessed to say in the last year alone we’ve seen Emmy nominations, Leo award wins, Miss World Canada, Miss Universe Canada, and Mr World Canada crownings, music award wins and more nominations ). Not that those things define us, but it really is great to celebrate the dreams of our friends and clients. I’ve loved that. But, in the last few weeks, I’ve literally just had to take one day at a time. Its weird. Actually it’s kind of liberating. It makes me take each moment and be grateful for it. It’s made me really understand what’s important. I’ve been present with my family and my friends, and I’ve taken my time understanding what I love. Although I couldn’t do as much “work” as I’d like, I’ve seen God provide for our family, and I’ve loved seeing my family shine, even when I felt I couldn’t. They light up on set filming, on the baseball fields, on the beach, when we are with friends. I am one proud wife and mother.

1010293_10151559103751284_790473411_nI also feel like I got my voice back. One of my friends who is a very successful musician and writer once said to me that he “lost his words” for a period of time where he was going through struggle in his life. I didn’t understand what he meant fully, until this season of my sickness. I realized that for the last few years, I think I had “lost my voice”. Not in the sense that I didn’t have one, but that I had just lost what I once had. So much happened in my music career, and amongst the success was a lot of brokenness and hurt. I stayed positive in the midst of it, and I learned to help others find their voices, and champion their dreams, which I also love. But in this season I’m in now, I’ve found my own voice again, and I’m more excited than ever to share it.

998714_10151559103366284_349729947_nMy joy has been performing again. I’ve had the privilege of sitting at a grand piano and I get to show the world some of my story. It’s been strength for me these past few months, and I look forward to it more. I’m learning to be the leading lady in my own show again.

That’s it I guess for now. I have a show on Oxford hill in Whiterock on August 17th. It’s outdoor, and free, and it’s going to be awesome if you’d like to join me! I’d love to see you there 🙂

 

 

MARIKA

 

(photo credit Ruby Huang at Vancity Dream 2013)

The SuperBowl, Jennifer, Alicia and Beyonce.

I’ve never really understood all the hoopla over the Super Bowl. Maybe it’s because I’m not part of the culture of it all. It also could be the fact that I’ve actually never been invited to a Super Bowl Party. Yep. never.  ( WHAT! you say – big sigh awwwww ). It’s true. It’s ok, don’t feel bad – ok feel a little bad, and next year I expect to get lots of invites. I get that it’s a big deal and it’s a big weekend for sports fans everywhere. I’ve sang the national anthems at games and I really have attempted to understand how its played. But I can’t. I’ve come to terms with it. And so today I figured I’d watch, but alas, definitely the best parts were Jennifer Hudson, Alicia Keys, Beyonce and of course Destiny’s Child. Yep, powerhouse popstars represent. I’ve made it a point in my life to not criticize artists that are doing what I love and making a bucket load of dollars doing it. No matter people’s opinion whether positive or negative, no one can deny, that these ladies in their own way are talented, beautiful, and powerful game changers in our world. They are heroes to me, and I loved every minute of what they did today. That’s all I have to say about that. As for the football. I vote for the red guys because my favourite colour is red. Go Superbowl.

MARIKA

xoxox

My Mum and Oprah

I had a pretty intense start to the week. I ended up having major stomach pain, and had to go to hospital. We are so blessed to have friends close to us that we could drop the kids, so Stace dropped them and waited with me till the ambulance came. We are still going through tests, believing all is well, but it definitely set me back for sure. I was also struck with a sudden – “what if somethings really wrong?”  In the waiting and wondering, evaluating that I have to look after my health first or my whole world suffers especially my family. I came to realize that I do truly try to live my life to the fullest everyday. It was reassuring, and yet gave me a sense of urgency to HAVE MORE FUN in my life. For someone who LOVES WORK, and work can be fun, I just think, that I could laugh more, love more, and give more. All that to say, my mother came to visit, which I always love. We had tickets to Oprah, which to say the least, was just so inspiring and life giving. Hearing her very real story really gave me hope, and inspired me to believe God for HIS best for me. It was really a lifelong dream for my mum to see her live too, and I was so glad I was able to share it with her. Best words of the night that she shared : Acts 17:28 – ” In HIM I live and move and breathe! ”

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