Living Well

So, at noon, thursday, I go for my stomach scope. I’m a little nervous I have to say, but I’m eager to figure out what it wrong with me. Your thoughts and prayers would be much appreciated as I continue this journey to my wellness.
970401_541051092597370_498141191_nThough it has been a tough six months, and some days I’m confined to bed, but I have to say that one thing it has taught me is to Live Well. It’s strange not knowing what life is going to carry the next day. For me, I’m used to working like crazy, getting things done, and celebrating our people ( It’s true – blessed to say in the last year alone we’ve seen Emmy nominations, Leo award wins, Miss World Canada, Miss Universe Canada, and Mr World Canada crownings, music award wins and more nominations ). Not that those things define us, but it really is great to celebrate the dreams of our friends and clients. I’ve loved that. But, in the last few weeks, I’ve literally just had to take one day at a time. Its weird. Actually it’s kind of liberating. It makes me take each moment and be grateful for it. It’s made me really understand what’s important. I’ve been present with my family and my friends, and I’ve taken my time understanding what I love. Although I couldn’t do as much “work” as I’d like, I’ve seen God provide for our family, and I’ve loved seeing my family shine, even when I felt I couldn’t. They light up on set filming, on the baseball fields, on the beach, when we are with friends. I am one proud wife and mother.

1010293_10151559103751284_790473411_nI also feel like I got my voice back. One of my friends who is a very successful musician and writer once said to me that he “lost his words” for a period of time where he was going through struggle in his life. I didn’t understand what he meant fully, until this season of my sickness. I realized that for the last few years, I think I had “lost my voice”. Not in the sense that I didn’t have one, but that I had just lost what I once had. So much happened in my music career, and amongst the success was a lot of brokenness and hurt. I stayed positive in the midst of it, and I learned to help others find their voices, and champion their dreams, which I also love. But in this season I’m in now, I’ve found my own voice again, and I’m more excited than ever to share it.

998714_10151559103366284_349729947_nMy joy has been performing again. I’ve had the privilege of sitting at a grand piano and I get to show the world some of my story. It’s been strength for me these past few months, and I look forward to it more. I’m learning to be the leading lady in my own show again.

That’s it I guess for now. I have a show on Oxford hill in Whiterock on August 17th. It’s outdoor, and free, and it’s going to be awesome if you’d like to join me! I’d love to see you there ๐Ÿ™‚





(photo credit Ruby Huang at Vancity Dream 2013)

Media Literacy & Modern Day Slavery.

TaraTHer name is Tara Teng. She is a young woman who is a gift to our family, who encourages me to carry on fighting for what I believe in. Tara is an abolitionist. She is also Miss World Canada. But most importantly, she knows who she is and what God has called her to do on this planet, and she literally, on the front lines, helps rescue those who have been enslaved in human trafficking. She is one of my friends, but also one of my heroes.

I have always had a passion for changing the mainstream view of women in media. In fact, its one of the main reasons I am in the music industry. I want to be a different kind of entertainer/performer/CEO. For the most part ( and there are numerous professionals giving global talks on the subject ) women have constantly been thrown into sexualization in media and subjected as objects for the sake of selling something, usually a product. You don’t need to go far to realize that. The subject is deep, as well as far reaching, and it is in EVERYONE’s everyday lives – even if we don’t consciously know it. The challenge is, it is YOU & I as the consumer that are constantly encouraging it. From the magazines we buy, to the television shows we watch, to the music we listen to – or even the clothes we buy our children. We continue to grow up in a world where the sexualization of women has not only become more than acceptable, it has created an ever increasing demand for men and women to think that a subject like human trafficking is ok. IT IS NOT OK. Nor is it OK to watch our young women grow up in the music industry and completely lose themselves and destroy themselves for the sake of a paycheque and fame. I have also consistently seen how the entertainment and advertising culture have become a catalyst for which many men and women form their beliefs of human beings. But the REAL TRUTH of our IDENTITY needs to be coming out louder than ever before. Our girls and our boys are suffering because of it, and so are we. We need to be aware, VALUE OURSELVES so that we can VALUE OTHERS.

Last night I got to hear a documentary on media literacy by Jean Kilbourneย (Killing Me Softly 4) in a talk that another friend and hero of mine Monica was presenting. Monica is a professional personal trainer, and she speaks on identity, grace and the truth and how it relates to our health and the ideologies that society puts on us. Monica will soon have a website up and I’ll be linking her so you can find her tooย ( Monika-ka wink wink haha ) ( I’m trying to help her with her site, and it’s coming soon! ) but itย was just the kick in the butt I needed to get my heart going all over again to how important this issue is. When I was moping the day before in my blog, I really realized that my issues were very small compared to what’s going on in the lives of women and girls globally. The wednesday talk was timely, and so was the topic.

I know why I am where I am. It could be a slow going fight, but I’m in it for the long haul. Always have been, always will be. I am just blessed that I have some new companions to fight with! I encourage you to be an educated consumer. The world is full of junk, but I am hopeful that there are more people that desire to take a stand for the generations all over the world, to bring LIFE and not death. HOPE and HEALING, and not violence, pain and slavery.


Photo Credit: Annette Biggers